Thursday Treats: Getting Honest with Myself

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Jonathon Kambouris

I had to give myself a bit of a talking to this week. I’ve been ignoring how I’ve been treating my body for months now. In fact I have a bit of a love/ hate relationship with it. I love making a stand against the media bullshit about weight loss, body image, body shaming (whatever size you are) and all those disgusting advertisements for unhealthy weight loss methods. But at the same time I’ve been lying… to myself.

I’ve shouted that I don’t care about losing weight but it’s something I’ve battled with since I was 14. I struggled with an eating disorder for over 10 years and when you’re that obsessed with something I don’t think it ever completely leaves you, even if you’re certified as ‘better’.

Don’t get me wrong, I wouldn’t ever want to get back there but I do need to make some changes. I need to make better choices. I know I’ve been abusing my body with too much alcohol and food that isn’t good for me. I know I’ve been crashing on the sofa most nights, sinking a bottle of wine and eating whatever processed crap is readily available in the cupboard.

So this week Gareth and I both started to pay more attention to what we’re putting into our bodies. We’ve been eating more lean protein and veg than anything else. If I lose some weight, than great, but that’s not really what it’s about. More importantly, I want to nourish my body. I want to feel good, not groggy, in the mornings and I don’t want to automatically reach for the Pinot Grigio at 6 pm.

Let’s do this!